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Went 公公, 婆婆's house yesterday to fetch tutu & the mousies back. Was sadded to be reminded that Sweesie was no longer with us.

For as long as i could remember, ever since i was a little kid, everytime i went over to their house, Sweesie was always there. As the years passed, as she got older and weaker, her enthusium when she greeted us was always the same, wagging her tail furiously, managing to let out the weakest yet most welcoming bark.

Gradually as the years passed by, her fur started to drop, black spots started to appear on her skin, pus began to form on her eyes. People started to avoid her. I remember this years CNY, everyone was too busy celebrating that they all forgot about her. Even though they used to play with her in the past. But she accepted it and took it all in her stride, quietly, she just sat there on her bed, looking at everyone with her huge big eyes.

I was the only one who sat beside her and talked to her. Then, she put her tiny weak frame against me and we just sat there for the longest time. As we were leaving, she looked at me with those huge eyes, seeming to say thank you. At that moment, i felt that our relationship had reached a new level.

When her health started to deteriorate years ago, i kept asking everybody to take her to the vet, but they always said, 她年纪大了, 老了就会这样. It was so fustrating to see her in that state. Then, just 2 weeks ago, she apparently stopped eating for a few days. She was rushed to the vet but it was already too late. Her condition was too worse to be healed and she had to be humanely euthanased.

Now, she's no longer there. I would no longer be able to comb her fur like i always do every Sunday anymore.

I miss her so so much.

Sweesie,
我爱你