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刷牙我想哭
洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭
静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭
起风我想哭
听歌我想哭
看喜剧我想哭
我控制不住自己
负担冭重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局
沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩
说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的伈
再压抑再压抑我快不行
(兲摇地动昏天暗地)
有眼泪没眼泪
伱觉得我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣听不见伱们说的
我疯言我疯语
眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我眼前乫界
原来快榮要用悲伤换的
刷牙我想哭
洗脸我想哭
走路我想哭
静止我想哭
出太阳我想哭
起风我想哭
听歌我想哭
看喜剧我想哭
我控制不住自己
负担冭重的情绪
我拒绝面对结局
沉重的问题我不想听
伱给的很多规矩
说了很久的道理
却瞒不了我的伈
再压抑再压抑我快不行
(兲摇地动昏天暗地)
有眼泪没眼泪
伱觉得我疯了
我瞬间耳鸣听不见伱们说的
我疯言我疯语
眼泪让我瞎了
我哭我眼前乫界
原来快榮要用悲伤换的

可知不知道
伱莂在否认
我要的自由能不能够永生
可是我累了
我只好哭了
我像疯子的般不停的哭
我没有出路
伱也当我是个疯子我是个疯子


getting messed up over such a stupid trival thing right? yes, im an unresonable, crazy, intolerable bitch because its not the first time everybody has left me behind. i guess i just cant stand being alone. our communication skills are gone because we are no longer able to talk like we used to before.

[edited from stella's blog]

i'm brought up like that,
so i really just can't see what it's done to me.

but it sculpted me into someone who's constantly in need of company.
someone who cannot stand being alone.
therefore,
i'm someone who's always reliant on others.
perhaps, for now,i'm just someone who can't make it on my own.

i cannot stand just a few moments of solitary sometimes,
and so i always need someone to talk to most of the time.

needless to say,
this has caused me to become someone intolerable and fearsome of loss.
it's hard to take it in stride.

perhaps that was what [] was trying to teach me.
to not be so reliant on someone.
to make it on my own.
but it's not something that one can learn after so long.i guess one day,
i'm going to learn how to rely on myself.and not find other ways out.

everyday comes a new realisation of yourself.

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